Right now, I don't have a nagging sweet tooth. I don't have the desire to binge eat a raft of food. I am quite content with my smaller portions diet. But, I am dealing with a certain dieting demon. IMPATIENCE!!! There, I said it. I want this blog to be a totally accurate and honest account of my feelings and experiences through this weight loss journey. So, in all honesty, I am struggling with severe impatience. Impatience over the speed ( or more accurately the lack of speed) of weight loss. Basically the thought pattern goes something like this: I have been dieting for over a month...I have been making do with smaller portions and exercising...so I expect something in return...I want to SEE some progress. I want to FEEL some progress. I want to HEAR from people, "wow you have really been losing some weight!" I have lost 16 pounds, but I haven't had any of that. I know I have not felt or seen anything!! How depressing. How utterly boring. I feel like Linus who is waiting and waiting for the Great Pumpkin to arrive. It never comes. My tummy is still there. Just as big as ever. I went hiking today. I didn't glide along the paths-it was the usual struggle.
So I think writing it down will help. I believe that recognizing this potential pitfall and addressing it is the first step in fixing it. I know that I must keep telling myself that the weight wasn't put on in a day so it won't come off in a day, or week, or month. I certainly do believe that losing it slowly will enable me to keep the weight off long term. I know it was important for me to address this because, I don't want to just let the dieting demon win by talking me into a mental tailspin. To me this journey is every bit as much of a mental battle as it is a physical struggle. I have worked too hard to just quit because the progress is excruciatingly slow!